the end is near.

i know that sounds cliche but i feel that it is true.
the sort of things that are happening nowadays are just reinforcing my beliefs.
i'm a born again christian so i know i shouldnt have anything to worry about but heres the thing:

I want to live a full life- wife, kids, big yard in the quiet countryside where living is easy, watching them grow up, seeing them get married, growing old with the girl i love and stuff like that.

The only problem is that wanting that is TOTALLY selfish because i know that heaven would be such an amazing place..i should not feel like this but i'm not sure what it is that makes me want that so badly.

i dont know what to do about this feeling.

i want a wife..
i want kids..
i want a little girl..
i want to watch her grow up, then i want to walk her down the aisle..
i want so much in life, that i dont want the rapture to happen..
THAT is not right..lord, help me get rid of this feeling.


so thats what i desperately needed to get off of my chest lol

Current Location: Couch
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Thriller by Michael Jackson

Well, the band is going good..We have a lot of shows now. Were even opening for bands like(just gonna name them, if youve heard of them cool, if not then damn haha) Oh, Sleeper..Burden of a Day..Four Letter Lie..A Skylit Drive..stuff like that. so it should be fun

creed hahaha

Tags: hpmusic, what do you have to say?, writer's block

man i got some mail today but it was addressed to Isaac Potato.

what.

my name is nowhere near potato haha. oh and i totally gained mad respect for the rain tonight. i was coming home and i started raining and everything and i have to take some windy ass roads for like half the trip. well it was raining and i guess i still wasnt used to driving in the rain that much so i was going around this one curve and i totally lost control of my car man..it was scary. i know i kinda went to the left at first then i was like oh, ok i need to go back in my lane..so i turned right and it like really turned the car because i went from going to the left a little to totally going right which spun me like sideways and eventually all the way around. all i know is that i was going like sideways for a second or two then i ended up facing the total opposite way i was going. intense.

but yea im just glad im ok and that the car didnt flip or anything. that would have sucked a lot.

well gotta finish homework. too cool for school man..

well i started school. thats pretty fun. parking is a bitch though haha. lets see..i switched departments at work, i went from the most boring one to pretty much the exact opposite. its called the ebar[pronounced eeebar lol] and its really really fun. its a coffee bar [espresso bar]. umm i got my license, which took a lot of bs and time and money ha but now i have the car so i can drive but i need to pay for the car and everything like get it in my name and then get insurance lol def. mike is coming up to visit in september..for like 5 days. thats gonna be awesome. i wish stephen and val could have come up as well but school you know, i miss them alot though ha. well i gotta get ready for work so ill try to write again sometime. oh and i just found out about the band paramore and i am not afraid to admit i like them hahaha

Hey, everybody! ha yes, its me and i know i havent updated in a while but in a way its a good thing. sort of. neither good nor bad. umm im still working, about to get a raise hopefully. i am all registered for college and all that good stuff. i still have to work out all the financial aid crap though, which doesnt sound like fun at all, but i cant wait to start school. ill be going full time [somehow] but yea..

Oh and yesterday i was trying to jump onto a ledge and i didnt make it[almost though] and when my leg was coming back down, i scraped like a huge chunk of skin back on my shin and we thought you could see my bone but i was like wouldnt it hurt A LOT more if that was the case? so i dont think it was bone but it was white haha not sure if i need stitches or not, have no clue. its all good just bleeding sorta =/

oh i went to the one month wedding reception for the people that got married on the cruise which was really fun. i got ttooottalllyyy TRASHED too. that was fun. the 3 kids that i hung out with on the trip were there, which was awesome as well. it was kinda wierd though because over the course of the reception, three different people, including her mom, her aunt, and then somebody else she knew all came up to me at different points in time and they all told me that Leslie was single now hahaha. i sort of laughed when they first told me then i listened to what they said and then we would go back and forth about how old i am and how old she is and it must have been a funnnn conversation to have with a drunk person lol. but i guess its fine as long as her parents are fine with it because i dont really wanna go to jail hahaha that would be my luck soo well her mom likes me her aunt too but im still not sure if i like her. oh well i dont know why im worrying about it. if something happens, cool, but if nothing happens, then good, shes kinda young. yep. if theres one thing i learned about drinking, its that when youre doing it, you want to be with certain people that you dont want to be with as much as when your sober. haha and no offense of anything but im not talking about fat girls just to let you know haha

oh what an interesting life i live.

Current Location: almost to my shower
Current Mood: dirty
Current Music: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

well. i havent done this in a while. ill keep it short and simple. im still working a bunch. i was told im supposed to get a raise in the second pay period in july to 10.45 an hour so that will be sweet. uhh i went on my cruise which was wkfbgsdknhskblkdjfxhgl.bs4kjxgdtzsf awesome by the way...im soo glad there were some other kids that went in the group otherwise that would have been super boring man. i bought a zune and stuff..im going to my family reunion tomorrow which is cool, havent been to it for a couple years. gotta get up at like 10 though =/ its 2 something..yeaaahhhh thats about it.

so...


you know..

Fonts.

Thats all my friends are anymore. Veranda, Arial, Tahoma. When will it be Mike, Stephen, and Val again? someone tell me.. But when i think of all the fun times we've had, i cant help but think of all the awesome times were going to have in the future. Man, i need to blow through school and get my AA so i can move back down to Fl soon. Sometimes when i think about all the stuff i have done in my life, all the descisions, i cant help but wonder..

Did i make the right one?

Current Location: room
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: wrist slittin' music aka emo tunes

I went to a concert last night. Thats why I just woke up lol. It was crazy, it was Killswitch Engage, Dragonforce, Chimaira, and He Is Legend. It was such a great show, it was at a club too haha. it was pretty large for a club but the stage was about half the width of the house of blues and the floor was about half size as well. it was fun though. i crowd surfed twice! i wasnt going to at all but then the guy from killswitch was like ok with this song i wanna see fuckin bodies in the air! so i was like this is the perfect time to surf lol. i would have done it more but i didnt wanna lose my good spot[in the front] and also i didnt wanna lose my phone. one of the times somebody was holding onto my shirt so i couldnt go any further ahead in the crowd but the security guy also had ahold of me trying to help me down like they usually do but the person had a death grip on my shirt so i had to like reach back and pull it out of their hands, it was crazy. i could feel it start to rip but then they let go. i had an awesome time. i wanna go see killswitch every time they come now ha

Current Mood: sore